God's Childlike Poetry...aka God talking to me on my level...

So the week before last was one of those weeks where your head is filled with doubt and you look in the mirror and think, why am I doing this? You know everything going through your head is a lie, but you can't seem to stop them. So the Monday in Staff Prayer our time was spent journaling and dialoging with God. Most people I think would write a situation and and work through it with God. Mine, came out as a 7th grade poem. I couldn't stop writing it just flowed... When I finished I looked back and was amazed at what had come out. Every lie in my head, was challenged and God discredited. After I was done I felt a since of freedom. My heart felt so light and next time I looked in the mirror, I knew why I was here. So here is my cheesy but heart changing poem...

It's called "God...let's dialog" (so we did)

My heart is filled with doubt oh Lord
Why don't I trust you?
My heart is found not in you
but in non lasting places

Immediate gratification must be broken
My heart must be open
Those things I love need to be put to rest
My body and soul re-broken

Only I can put you back together
Only I can make you whole
I take time because I care
my love will always overflow

You say you cannot hear me
You say you cannot feel me
But when do you listen
when do you stop
when do you ask

You say you are tired
but you don't ask for rest
You say I'm not here
But you never come.

You say you feel fake
But you have met me
Come meet me again
But stay for longer
Stay for always
Stay for forever

Stop trying to do it on your own
I will fill you hearts desires
I will go grocery shopping
I will sew
I will be there
What if you just invited me?

You are never alone
so stop depending on people
I'll take the critics and the looks
I'll show them one day that I
Always loved them and never left them

Love.
What is love
Who is and has love
I AM, I do
let me love you

Let me calm your soul
Let me lift your eyes
When you don't have enough
Strength to do it yourself

Stop being me
Stop being God
Only I can be God, not you
You don't need the responsibility
You can't take the pressure

I want you to live life
Intentional, but care free
Stop trying to be perfect
Let me do that and you just be you
Just be you.

You, Kat, be you.
Be Kat, be Katherine, be Kate
I will be God
I just need you to be you.
Just you.
Because I will use you, not someone else
You try to be
I choose to use you
My child, my princess, my creation
You.

The Crazy thing was He used all of these throughout my week. It was awesome. I would highly recommend journaling with God when you have some time. Actually make time. It's great b/c all those thoughts get written down and are tangible so you can reread them and be reminded of God's goodness and greatness in your life. Also it is a way to organize your thoughts and frustrations as well as to seek counsel on pressing issues filling your thoughts.

Night Night everyone.

More later xx
-KL